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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Our Heartbreaking Anniversary...


First, we would like to say thank you for all the support in the last few weeks. I would especially like to thank those who have taken the time to listen to the way that I feel. Thank you for taking the time to listen to my little heartbreak and lending me an understanding ear. It is because of YOU, I know I have the BEST FRIENDS aka BEST FAMILY in the WORLD!

As many of you know I had a miscarriage before successfully carrying Dimitri and I was devastated. This Saturday, will mark the three year anniversary of the due date to the little baby we lost. This loss still affects me in many ways and still my heart breaks for the little one who is not with us here on Earth. I am very spiritual and I know that God has a master plan. I know in my heart everything happens for a reason but it does not fill the void I feel inside.

Choosing to have children was the BEST thing I ever did with my life. About a year and a half after Dimitri was born, I decided to look through the journal we kept as we were trying to conceive. I came across the notes regarding my first pregnancy and started to cry. Our first doctor’s appointment was to be on June 14, 2005 and it was on this day that we were suppose to hear our baby’s heartbeat for the first time (little did we know the importance of this date). Within a few days of making that first appointment we would lose our baby.
FAST FORWARD to one year later, I gave birth to Dimitri Constantine Vasilacopulos on June 14, 2006. For a moment while reading these papers time seemed to stand still. I took the papers to Cicily to read and with unspoken understanding we knew God had a plan. Looking back, we know EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!

Everyday we are grateful for our children and we are blessed everyday. The void does not go away, the love still remains and we will never forget. We came across this on the internet and thought it was perfect.

"I'm writing this from heaven, here I dwell with God above. Here there are no more tears or sadness, just eternal love. Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said "I welcome you," "It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone, As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on."
God gave me a list of things that He wished for me to do, and foremost on that list was to watch and care for you. I will be beside you every day, and week, and year, and when your sad I'm standing there to wipe away each tear. And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth and all those loving years, Because you're only human, they're bound to bring you tears, But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain, Remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain.
And to my friends, trust God knows what is best, I'm still not very far away from you, I'm just beyond the crest, When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind, I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind. And when you feel a gentle breeze or the wind upon your face, that’s me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace. And when it's time for you to go from that body to be free, Remember you're not going, you're coming home to me. And I will always love you from that land way up above, We'll be in touch again someday, P.S. GOD SENDS HIS LOVE!"

2 comments:

Eric*Dana*Colter said...

amy...GRR!! you can't write stuff like that for a pregnant women to read...i'm all choked up!!
We miscarried once and the due date is the same day as my nieces birthday (1 yr apart). She will be turning 4!!!!!
Each year when Feb 10th comes around i can't help but to think of that baby as well...it breaks my heart, STILL. but i agree, everything happens for a reason!!

Gill Family said...

I can always count on you for a good cry!