Today marks the anniversary of the due date of the baby we lost. I found this poem online and it brought tears to my eyes because I know that one day I will be able to hold our Angel Baby in my arms.
An Angel Never Dies
Don't let them say I wasn't born,
That something stopped my heart.
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I've loved you from the start.
Although my body you can't hold
It doesn't mean I'm gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn't make mistakes
But that won't soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do,
Another child you'll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I'm always there.
There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you'll understand.
Although I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes,
That doesn't mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.
This anniversary always brings mixed emotions. I can be surrounded by a group of people and still feel alone in my thoughts. I am blessed to have Dimitri and Zachary, but in my heart I know that something is missing, a piece of my soul is missing. I just wish that sometimes people could read my mind instead of trying to explain how this loss continues to break my heart. The heartache does not go away and I know that I will never be whole because a piece of my soul will always be in heaven with our Angel Baby. Happy Birthday Angel Baby, you will always be more than a memory!